STORY: The War Fuck Shower

Yet another “three word prompt” story for you. I always try to treat the three words as a single connected phrase, describing a concept or entity or act to be included in the story. This one made it very easy to do that.

I am tempted to spin this into a longer tale where we explore a bit more of the humans’ war versus the Hanvalti, although I’m not sure I could keep up the hot, hard sex theme while also exploring the political and military manoeuvres that my squad of troopers get caught up in!

Content Note: gag reflex, war theme.

The War Fuck Shower

To Jasynna, the war against the Hanvalti seemed unending. A perpetual sequence of hyperspace jumps, atmospheric drops, and planet after planet of slogging through smoke and mud while lasers, pulse bombs and good old-fashioned high explosives blasted the world around her. She didn’t care if war never changed, but this one certainly didn’t seem to. While much of the war was fought in space, by orbital cruisers or interplanetary dreadnaughts, in the end it always came down to soldiers on the ground, securing territory and digging out the resistance. As long as the surface-based anti-starship batteries remained in enemy hands, you couldn’t claim to control the system, and ultimately that meant fighting for them.

This particular fight was in the balance. The number of enemy troop ships landing showed that the flyboys had not gained orbital supremacy yet, and the Hanvalti were still able to resupply and reinforce their ground forces. Her own squad had encountered a platoon of recently landed Hanvalt stormtroopers two days ago. Her force-armour still bore the scars. And the depleted energy cells. Fryia had taken a bad hit, and had to be medevac’ed after the battle – she’d survive, and be back in action soon enough.

Garrah, their comms guy, and Inick, heavy weapons, followed her back to base. Another patrol over, another successful fight in the books, one wounded comrade.

Stark plastisteel walls surrounded the forward supply base. Their armour transmitted the access codes and a shielded door slid open. They checked in their dirtied and battered equipment for repair and recharge, and then went to the showers to do the same for themselves. One thing about a world caked in mud: there was plentiful local water to supply natural showers.

It was one of those unwritten codes that all armies seem to develop, that get passed on from experienced squaddies to new recruits. In this army, everyone knew what the first shower to the left was. It was always built slightly larger than the others, and that meant it was more suited to the purpose the troopers needed it for. And Jasynna went straight there.

The war-fuck shower. Before she got through the door, she could feel Inick’s strong, calloused hands on her underwear, while she stripped off her combat undershirt. She could tell from the sound of his footsteps that Garrah was coming too. They all needed this. The aches and hardship of the patrol could only be expelled one way.

Garrah pulled Inick’s shirt off while Jasynna stripped herself naked. When Garrah got on with his own shirt, Inick pulled his underwear off and got on his knees. Garrah leaned back and let Inick pull his underwear off too, and now they were all nude. Inick took Garrah’s cock in his mouth while Jasynna opened the shower cubicle and set the water flowing. Hot, almost too hot to bear. They needed that. It would take a few seconds longer to get going, seconds that Jasynna spent stroking her fingers between her labia and watching the two men get one another’s dicks hard. She lathered her body, the soap making her skin slippery and sensuous under her own hands, letting the huge, beefy Inick and the lithe, lanky Garrah join her under the stinging heat of the water jets. She practically panted, eyeing the two proud erections.

Inick stepped in close. There was no need, but she said it anyway. “I need it hard and brutal, guys.”

“So do we.” It didn’t matter which of them said it, they all felt the urgency. Was it Jasynna rising on her tiptoes or Inick lifting her with his hands? It didn’t matter. She was up and lifted onto the tip of his cock. Garrah made a gesture, and she reached for the lube and handed it to him. Then sank herself down onto Inick’s thick, hard shaft with a groan encompassing all the struggles of the patrol. She could feel Garrah’s hands on Inick’s thighs, pulling them apart. She lifted herself up again, wrapped her arms behind Inick’s neck. Inick gasped and pushed upwards after Jasynna as Garrah gave a guttural sigh.

“Oh, fuck, that feels so good inside me,” Inick groaned. Garrah withdrew and Jasynna lifted herself again, watching Garrah to match her descent to his thrust. Garrah drove his cock into Inick’s arse, which drove Inick’s cock harder into Jasynna’s cunt. She yowled with the overloading sensation, it was like being fucked with the dual force of both men.

“Yes! Garrah! Pound him for me!” she cried.

“Ride my fat cock, you dirty slut,” Inick replied.

“Slut yourself, you filthy fuckboy,” Garrah told Inick. And they fucked. Inick slutted himself on Garrah’s cock, Jasynna rode Inick’s cock. Her breath was already ragged and desperate, her hair bedraggled both by the shower and her own sweat, her face flushed and eager. She could feel Inick’s need thundering inside her, Garrah’s breathing as wild as her own.

Garrah came first, a howl of release and Inick’s sharp gasp – and Garrah’s hips slamming Inick forwards into Jasynna. Jasynna clutched Inick’s hair, winced in pain and ecstasy from the sudden spearing.

While Garrah withdrew and cleaned off his cock in the shower, Jasynna rode Inick harder and reached between their bodies with her hand to rub frantically at her clit. It took her seconds to find the sweet spot and her own climax, screaming over and over again as her legs shuddered and waves of fiery delight swept out through her body.

She dropped to her knees in front of Inick, opened her mouth and let her jaw drop. He gripped her hair and pulled her head down onto his cock. No simple fellatio, this – a facefuck, fast and brutal, aiming for the tightness of her throat. Just the way she needed it. Behind him, Garrah joined Jasynna on his knees, opening his mouth and extending his tongue to probe and suck Inick’s stretched hole and lap up his own cum oozing from the opening. Jasynna was aware of it, not quite able to see, but the thought was enough. As Inick pounded her mouth and she did her best to gasp gulps of air whenever he withdrew, she reached back to her clit, sliding two fingers into her cunt still soppy with Inick’s semen, and used her thumb to press and grind her clit again.

She choked and gagged, losing herself in the physicality of the moment until there was nothing of her memories or mind, just the complete absorption of the moment, of being used, and loving it. She swapped hands on her clit, and reached out with the other to grab Garrah’s cock and stroke it, feeling it regain some of its erection already.

Inick grunted and leaned forwards, his hands on the wall instead of Jasynna’s head. She had a split second to realise he was coming, to prime her gullet to swallow, and swallow hard. She still choked and spurted some of it either side of his cock, a spray and a dribble smearing her chin and his thighs. He bent down and licked it off her face.

Garrah stood up, wielding his cock in his hand and stood over Jasynna. “Got some more for you both, I hope,” he smiled. He stroked his cock hard and fast, Jasynna reaching up and pushing her cleavage together the way she knew turned him on the most.

He stared down at her and wanked furiously until he could deliver her his second load. He aimed at her face, catching her cheek, neck and breasts with a string of thick semen. Jasynna gasped at the suddenness of his spurt, and the impact when it struck her. She revelled in it, and Inick’s eager tongue lapping it up off her skin before the shower water washed it away.

They washed each other off, towelled each other’s bodies. Made their way to the debrief room, still feeling the soreness between their legs. The lieutenant looked at Jasynna.

“Status report?”

“Situation normal, sir. All fucked up!”

STORY: Rumour Valley Railway

This is another “three word prompt” story, this one sourced not from the usual tag cloud, but from a random word generator (I was looking for more erotica sites to use, but most erotica sites don’t arrange their tag clouds by frequency, they go for alphabetical order and list the frequency after each one – so less chance of serendipitous combinations – boo!) The title is the three words that prompted the story. This story is probably as close to a “proper” romantic story style as I do, and I’m sort of pondering whether to try to expand it into a longer story with a relationship between the protagonists. But for now, it stands on its own (and I have far too many other writing projects that I should be doing anyway).

Rumour Valley Railway

Eloise pondered the name on the map while she waited for the train. It seemed apt, for everyone told her the same thing: “Rumour Valley is a strange place. Lots of stories come out of there.” No one seemed to remember what those stories were, just vague hints about suspicions and ruined reputations.

She wondered if they’d told the same stories to the navvies when they put in the railway all along the bottom of the valley, alongside the river flowing steadily towards a confluence with the vast flow of which it was a mere tributary. That confluence was marked by a thriving city, far larger than the market town of Harringby where Eloise spent most of her life, and somehow there was only that railway link. Almost all the folks of Harringby travelled the other direction for work, pleasure or shopping, to the old industrial city farther inland. The old superstitions wouldn’t die. Plenty of people took the train from one city to the other, and so far as Eloise knew, they didn’t worry about it. The legend only remained in Harringby, and the smaller village of Chidestone that was the other stop before the valley opened out into the ancient floodplain, now much higher and drier than the history books told it used to be. So, Chidestone residents went to the river, and Harringby to the factories, and ever it was so.

But the days of such determinism were gone, and a job interview and hope for the future took Eloise on the maligned rail route after all. And besides, it wasn’t as if any stories could be spread if she stayed in a train carriage the whole way, could it? Less than an hour to the terminus, what could possibly happen?

The train pulled up and disgorged its passengers onto the platform. Eloise waited until the platform cleared and hopped through the nearest carriage door, and looked for a place to sit.

At first, she thought the carriage was deserted. Regardless of the superstition, there would normally be a few people still on the train, those from the cities, for example. She looked from one end to the other, trying to decide whether she wanted to sit facing forwards or backwards, in the middle or at one end, by the window or on the aisle.

“Eloise! As I live and breathe! Is it really you?”

That voice! Memories stirred in an instant hearing him again. He must have been slumped in his seat and hidden from view, which was why she hadn’t seen him before. It was Peter Terrigate, a boy – no, a man, now, for sure – Eloise remembered from their school days, from the year above hers. She turned to look at him.

He was even more gorgeous than she remembered. That barrel chest had filled out, his muscles were now properly toned, and those deep, soft, brown eyes… Eloise recalled the crap teenage poetry she’d scrawled at the backs of her exercise books about this absolute dish of a man. He’d let his hair grow out so there was a slight air of a Bohemian fop, on top of the classical sports hero physique. It was all she could do not to drop her bag.

“Peter! I haven’t seen you in years!” Eloise exclaimed, to cover up her sudden wave of embarrassment.

“I haven’t been home since I left for uni. Somehow I figured you’d be long gone too, never thought I’d see anyone I knew from Harringby – but still have loads of fond memories. I guess I thought everyone else had forgotten me, though.”

“How could I? I, um, I had a huge crush on you, you know.”

“You did not, don’t fib! I was so awkward back then. Still am, come to think of it.”

“No, I really did. To be honest, when I heard you just now, I remembered some of the things I used to write about you…” Eloise trailed off as she felt her cheeks start to burn.

Peter reached out and hooked his finger, lifting her chin slightly with his knuckle so their eyes met again.

“You’ve gone a very pretty colour, Eloise. I might think some of those things were really, really dirty. Is that why you never said anything at the time?”

Eloise froze, torn between the embarrassment if she said yes and he laughed at her, or the lost opportunity if she lied, and it turned out he was okay with it. But the way he was touching her, the way he’d taken command with just one finger under her chin. She wanted, so badly, to say “yes”, to confess, and see where it led. So she did.

Oh God, he leaned in so close, close enough she could feel his hot breath on her cheek, feel his body heat close to her own chest. His voice sank to a murmur.

“Now, why would you tell me that, Eloise, unless you wanted to try out some of those dirty, dirty things with me, right now?”

The heat from her cheeks seemed to have overflowed to the rest of her body, and into his. She swallowed nervously, she could feel how much he meant it, how already his cock was stiffening in his trousers, nudging against her thigh. She ought to feel scared, but she just knew that if she told him “No”, he’d stop and leave her alone, or just go back to talking. Only that confidence allowed her to nod.

“But, what if someone sees?”

“We have the train to ourselves. We can do what we want. What you want. And I think you want to take down your undies and put them on the seat.”

Eyes wide and staring into his, Eloise hitched up the hem of her interview skirt on both sides and used her fingers to hook into her knickers at the hips. She bent her knees and eased the underwear down over her butt. Eventually, she had to break eye contact and bend at the waist, struggling to unhook the panties from her shallow heels. Without a word, she stood, reached out, and dropped them on the nearest seat. She looked for Peter’s expression again.

“Now I think you want to unzip my flies and pull my cock out.”

“Yes, sir,” Eloise said. It seemed like the right words. She gently guided him closer with her hands on his hips, then fumbled with his zipper for a second or two before she managed to ease it down. She bit her lip as she reached her fingers through the opening. Of course, she’d dreamed of what his cock would look and feel like, but she’d never imagined she would find out for real.

It felt stiff, thick, she could trace her thumb around the edge of the foreskin that was already peeling back as he became more erect. She’d never been with a man without wanting to explore every contour of his penis, each vein and ridge, and it was no different now. Her fingers stroked the length and girth from tip to base, and she revelled in the sensation of his cock changing, growing, in response. Only when she had touched every inch did she bring it out so she could look at the beautiful shaft in all its glory. It was thicker and longer than she had guessed, almost matching her most vigorous fantasies when she’d wanked as a teenager.

“Not a disappointment, I trust?” Peter asked.

“It’s huge, sir!” Eloise said. What she thought he wanted to hear, and true.

“I think you want me to fuck you with it, right now, don’t you?”

Oh God, did she? Her heart pounded in her chest and her cunt leaked arousal. The way he asked, he was letting her choose. If she said no, she could lose that cock forever. If she said yes, then…. what? It would be wrong – lewd, disgraceful, yes. She was on her way to a serious, important meeting, a job interview. The rational part of her mind put up every argument it could to make her turn him down, but her gut, her genitals, her sex drive, were in command.

“Yes, sir. I do.” Without him asking, she climbed up onto the seat, knelt with her rear towards him and her thighs spread, her arms resting on the chair back and her chin over the headrest. She reached back and hitched her skirt up around her waist, tucking it into its own waistband to leave her open and bare.

“Fuck me, please, Peter.”

He teased her, brushing his cockhead against her slit, making her rock back, hungry for it now she’d agreed and given herself to the lewdness and naughtiness. His hand, firm and controlling, pushed her back into place until he was ready. A soft tearing sound, a rubbery swish.

“Almost forgot something important there, sweetie,” Peter said. His cock felt different now – a condom. Eloise sighed happily that he’d thought of that precaution, though she wondered how come he’d had one ready. Forgetting or ignoring the hypocrisy thats he always carried one or two herself.

Then his hands were on her hips, his cock was pushing her open, her mouth open and moaning quietly at the utter deliciousness of the sensation as he filled her up.

“That feels so good, El. Oh, God, you’re so hot!” Peter eased his full length inside her.

“I can’t believe I’m doing this,” Eloise gasped. “It feels amazing.”

Peter rocked his hips back and forth, Eloise responding with hers, listening to Peter’s groans and echoing them with her own higher-pitched moans and sighs. She’d never felt so turned on so quickly, it defied all her preconceptions about what she liked and wanted, her hangups about exposure, about, well, everything. But she was lost in the moment, riding Peter’s cock – riding Peter Terrigate’s cock – and loving every second, every sensation.

Peter’s left hand reached round her hip and he leaned over her, his chest resting against her back so he could reach all the way to her tiny, throbbing clit. The instant he touched it, she let out a shrill squeak at the ecstatic fire. He needed no further encouragement, and kept softly circling the nubbin with his fingertip.

Eloise closed her eyes, panting for breath as it felt like her whole chest was contracting in time to Peter’s touch, his thrusting cock, his heartbeat, his mind.

“Please,” she gasped, “Please make me come!”

She felt his right hand grip her hair as he redoubled his efforts. Somehow, that possessive, controlling gesture was what it took to drive Eloise to climax. She howled and screamed and writhed and bucked. Her body rode out her orgasm for an eternity packed into a few seconds, until she collapsed against the chair back, Peter still sliding his cock an and out of her.

“My turn now. I think you want to finish me with your mouth and swallow it all. It would be a shame to spoil that smart skirt of yours with my cum leaking from your pussy, after all.”

“But you’re wearing a condom, there wouldn’t be any-“

Peter interrupted. “I was quite clear about what you wanted to do, Eloise.”

Eloise gulped. “Yes, sir. Sorry, sir.” He was already pulling out.

She turned around and crouched as low as she could, bringing her face down to his crotch level, reaching back with her hands to hold the seat and keep her balance. She watched him carefully slide the condom off his cock, tie it off, and stuff it into her bag. He dropped his business card into he rbag after it, then turned to face her, wielding his cock like a weapon before him. Eloise blinked as it came too close for her eyes to focus on it, and nervously opened her mouth.

She groaned as Peter’s cock forced her to open her jaw even wider than she’d anticipated, then all sound was cut off apart from a muffled splutter – he was in her mouth and fucking her face. There was no doubt about who was doing what to whom in Eloise’s mind, blinking back the tears as she took his shaft right to the back of her throat, trying to tease him with her tongue. He was faster, more brutal, than in her cunt, and as disgraceful and debauched as it felt, it also felt right to let him use her like this. She wanted it. He wasn’t like the boyfriends she’d occasionally dallied with. He was something more powerful.

“I’m coming, El! Brace yourself, swallow everything!”

Panic seemed to flood Eloise’s system but there was nothing she could do about it now. She felt Peter’s cockshaft twitch and pulse, and suddenly he was giving a guttural cry, his hips slamming against her cheeks and his cock forced deep into her gullet, and hot, thick spunk flooding her. Her throat twitched and she gulped, fighting the sensation she was drowning by drinking everything she could. She still felt some of Peter’s semen dribble down her chin, making her sense of utter shame complete.

He pulled out a pack of wet wipes, and mopped her face, then used another to wipe her cunt dry, too.

“Wow. Thank you for fucking me. I can’t believe I said yes, I still can’t believe we actually did that.” Eloise gabbled as Peter helped her straighten herself out.

“Well, we did, and I’m glad.” Peter held her hips and pulled her close, placing a soft, lingering kiss on her lips.

“You know, I can still taste myself on you,” he told her, making her blush again.

The PA pinged. “The next station is Chidestone. Please make sure you have all your belongings before leaving the train.” Already, they could feel the train slowing down as it approached the platform.

“This is my stop,” said Peter. “Maybe I’ll see you again on the journey back…”

The train pulled to a halt, and Peter grabbed his bag, and skipped from the train. A dozen or so passengers scurried on and the train pulled away.

Eloise made her way to the toilet cubicle to redo her hair and makeup ready for her interview. In the mirror, she looked exactly like she’d just been thoroughly fucked by a handsome young man.

And she realised her panties were gone.

Of course, no one else had any proof of what had happened, but by the time she got home that evening, the rumours were all over Harringby and Chidestone.

Trouble on the streets of Sexblogtown

I have been very much on the sidelines as far as sexblogging is concerned for a while now. My video game projects are taking up a huge amount of mental processing, and there’s also been a metric fucktonne of shit happening in my personal, irl, life that I generally have no wish to discuss online with anyone who isn’t in my very tight and very limited circle.

Nevertheless, I do follow and catch up reading a few of my favourite bloggers in the sexblogging community as and when, and for those I follow on twitter, I see their tweets.

All of which means that I don’t want to just sit this one out on the sidelines entirely.

Many of the names involved are unfamiliar to me, although the involvement in the community is often significant and I am aware of them.

All of which is just preamble.

The trouble mentioned in the title is that someone in the sexblogging community wrote a tiresome screed against inclusive language, characterising requests for people to not use hurtful or abusive language structures as some kind of linguistic totalitarianism. It’s a tired and disgusting form, and there was frankly nothing special about the writing quality or the message here. After taking the time to read it, and processing my fury, I concluded that the only response I could give would be “OK Boomer”. It’s not like I haven’t seen the same apologia for hatespeech repeated over and over for the past 20 years or so in various forums and countless different people.

I became aware of this when one of the bloggers I follow tweeted a link to Kayla Lords’ These Moments are Always Bigger Than We Think They Are and followed the links there to find out what was going on: MxNillin’s and via pingbacks from there to Quinn Rhodes’
I do not have to be nice to people who misgender me and vanillafreesex’s Do Better!. (Quinn’s blog is one of those on my “catch up reading” list so I might have got to this later anyway, but it’s better to be current-ish if I can with this post.

Those references will be plenty to give you the gist of what happened and why this is (a) a big deal, and (b) not something I want to sit out entirely. Even if all I’m doing is giving the slightest boost by linking them, rather than adding anything of my own to this.

I’m nonbinary genderfluid. When people start having a go about neologisms used as pronouns, or questioning the need for words like cisgender, or asking why they can’t use this or that word that used to be okay, I start to feel threatened. I “pass” as cis male and generally get away with not being seen as “queer” in r/l; but every time I hear someone refer to me as a “man” I get a slight twinge of dysphoria – even though I will use that word about myself (but generally as part of an established phrase/quote to express a view).

I seek out spaces where I hope/expect that I can be seen/accepted as not just a man, as somewhere else in the gender continuum. It feels threatening to find that the sexblogging community is maybe not as good on that front as I had hoped. While the people I connect with by reading their blogs or following on twitter are all pretty good on this stuff, and thus I am shielded a bit from the wider community, I had contributed in the past on one of the affected events, and considered participating in another, so this is not great. I don’t write a lot of trans/NB characters in my short stories, but I do make an effort to not restrict my stories as far as the characters’ genders and pairings are concerned.

But like I said, I am somewhat shielded from the main impact of this “drama” (as Kayla Lords points out, there needs to be a better word for these things, but it’s what we have for now). The point of this post is to speak up and just say that transphobic tirades against inclusive language poison the atmosphere for everyone. All of the posts I linked above asked for people to speak up and stand with them, and for what little it’s worth, this is me doing that. I’ve been a bit cowardly about it, avoiding using google-able names of the events or the people who wrote or backed the original piece. (That r/l stuff has me pretty vulnerable overall, so I’d rather not attract too much attention right now.)

So yeah. The links above are better written and more informative on the subject so go read them, get informed, and make your own choice. This post makes mine clear.

STORY: Sophie’s First Time

Content Note: exhibitionism, D/s, beating.

This story is another one using a “three tag prompt” I scooped from a kink/fetish web board’s tag cloud. The tags were “first time parking lot beating” and conjured basically, the scene presented below.

By now, you may have guessed that one of the things I have set myself for 2020 is to do more of these stories.

Sophie’s First Time

Sophie had worried that, after a month chatting on social media, she’d have nothing more to say when she met Dan. That every conversation topic would have been wrung dry and no new words would fill the void. That somehow their first date would be, well, boring.

And now, hours after that first hesitant offer of her cheek to receive Dan’s peck, her head was buzzing and her excitement palpable. When he offered to walk her back to the parking lot, her heart leapt. She fidgeted in her best little black dress, the one she always wore on a first date, before accepting, extending her hand, letting him pull her to her feet.

It didn’t need saying that he was in charge now. During the month of discussion and negotiation, they’d talked about what was involved, how she could withdraw at any time, how he wouldn’t take anything that wasn’t offered. But through the evening, she had deferred more and more to his decisions for her, even to the point of letting him deny her the option of drinking alcohol – usually she felt she needed a couple of drinks just to get through a first date.

So now, when he put his arm possessively on her butt to guide her back to the lot where they’d both parked befoe meeting at the bar, it just felt right to let him steer her with a stern word from time to time. She was glad the amber streetlight hid the coloration of her face, or he’d know she was blushing. Her cunt felt uncomfortably warm, tingling and excited just at his touch. That wasn’t normal, was it? It was certainly different than any of the boyfriends she’d dated before.

It was so late at night, the parking lot seemed deserted. The lighting seemed brighter, and was whiter, clearer. Sophie felt Dan’s mouth just behind her ear.

“What a pretty colour you’ve gone. I wonder why?”

Sophie squirmed in his grasp, bit her lower lip. “I don’t know, Sir.” It was the first time she’d actually used the title they’d talked about. She felt like she’d crossed a bridge, made a decision she wasn’t sure she could, or wanted to, take back.

When they reached her car, Sophie turned to Dan, expecting him to want to kiss her, like her other dates would have. Instead, he took her by the hips and turned her round to face the rear of the car.

“Bend over and place your hands on the car,” Dan’s voice was so stern and commanding! Sophie squirmed in her strappy heels, legs pressed together tightly, but at the same time, she did exactly as he told her.

“Good girl. My beautiful little subgirl,” Dan spoke more softly, a note of appreciation unlike any Sophie had heard even when other men had said they liked her looks. She looked over her shoulder at him, wanting him to see her gratitude.

“Eyes straight ahead, girl. Head down, arse up!” She responded without hesitation, and Dan continued smoothly, “Good girl!”

His fingers touched Sophie’s thighs, slid up to find the hem of her dress. She shivered, anticipating the next step. His hands eased her dress up, towards her hips, and beyond.

“I think I’m about to find out why you were blushing,” Dan said, “Am I right?”

Sophis nodded, her voice a breathy gasp, “Yes, Sir.” Her cheeks burned so fiercely she almost expected to see their glow reflected in the shiny metal of her vehicle.

She shivered as he bunched her dress around her waist, and hooked his fingers in the top of her panties. “What are you going to do?”

He didn’t answer straight away. He just pulled her panties down around her thighs, leaving her bottom bare and exposed. Sophie whimpered, her fingers curling and pressing harder against the car.

“Please, Sir. What are you going to do?”

“That’s better. I’m going to beat your arse, and you’re going to like it. But first…” He put his fingers to Sophie’s naked cunt, and she felt at once pleased and ashamed that she had taken the time to shave before coming out to see him. But most of all, her heart skipped a beat when she realised he was feeling for how wet she was. That he really had discovered the reason for her red cheeks.

“Ah. I see. Well I think that makes you something of a dirty little subgirl, who deserves to be spanked, don’t you?”

Sophie nodded, helplessly. She felt incredibly dirty with her arse exposed and letting him touch her this way, in a public place, where anyone could see – never mind that no one was there now, and unlikely to be for hours. And she felt dirtier that she was getting even more turned on by the thought. It was so far from anything she’d ever done before.

Dan’s hand squeezed and fondled her buttocks, each in turn, making her squirm each time. All she got was a stern instruction to stay still. She bit her lower lip and tried to keep her body from betraying her. She wanted to look round, but more, she wanted to please Dan, to prove that she could be the sort of obedient sub she’d read about in the stories that had led her to finding the site where she’d started talking to Dan.

So she heard rather than saw as Dan undid his belt, slipped it from his trousers, folded it over. He rested the long strip of leather across the peak of her behind, brushed it in a slow caress side to side and up and down her buttocks. Sophie closed her eyes, tense, her fingers once more trying to burrow into the paintwork.

“Remember to breathe, little subbie,” Dan said. “Nice, slow, deep breaths.” Sophie could see the sense in the command, so she tried to do it, relaxing her body. She almost forgot why she was doing it.

The leather smacked against the fleshiest part of her rump, and she yelped with surprise. The sting bloomed and spread from the initial strike, from a sharp tone to glowing warmth, almost soothing. She reached her left hand back to try to touch and soothe the smarting flesh but Dan caught her wrist and firmly, but gently, forced her hand back to its place on the car.

“You can touch when I’ve finished, sweetie,” he promised.

“Yes, Sir. Thank you, Sir.”

She couldn’t make herself relax again, but Sophie focussed on breathing. The second stroke of the belt drew another cry from her lips, and made her hips jerk forwards. Again, the hot glow spread from the intial strike, and she moaned softly. It was strange how such a painful experience could feel so good. But she didn’t have time to reflect on the paradox, because Dan struck with his belt again. It was clear he was growing more confident, satisfied that she was going to take it. She squealed, gasped and yelped in equal measure as Dan laid more strokes across her bare bottom, giving her just enough time, a second or two, to recover from the last before delivering another one. She had no idea how long it lasted, lost count of how many she’d taken. She only knew that her whole backside was ablaze, stinging and throbbing in a way that felt better and more painful than she’d ever imagined. And her cunt agreed, tingling and dripping as her arousal grew.

At last, Dan relented. Her knees slumped against the rear bumper, her elbows on the metalwork. She gasped for breath. Eventually, words formed in her throat.

“Thank you, Sir!” she breathed.

She felt his hands on her butt, cupping and easing her cheek apart.

“You’re welcome, subgirl.”

She heard a zipper unfasten, felt his calves either side of hers, his body heat close behind her. His cockhead against her lower lips.

It took a moment to remember the word.

“Red.”

At once, she felt him step back, heard him fasten his zipper.

“You can move now, Sophie,” he said. She nodded, stood up, pulled her panties up and blushed as she felt them squelch against her sopping pussy. Pulled her dress back down around her thighs. She turned around.

“I’m sorry, Sir. It’s just – I didn’t want my first time to be in a parking lot.”

* * *

PS I feel like it’s worth mentioning that in my mind Dan’s next words are absolutely to praise Sophie for using her safeword, and to reassure her that he’ll take her virginity only when she is comfortable and ready for it. (Regardless of what you may feel about the concept of virginity, to Sophie the character, it means something.) If I get some suitable prompts, I may revisit this pair an see how their relationship unfolds!

STORY: Transactions For Love

CONTENT NOTE: Mind control, dubious consent, auction, forced(?) orientation change, totalitarian regime and suppression

The following story came from a set of tags that grouped together on a kink site I frequent. The tags formed the prompt “club love auction”.

Transactions For Love

Guema stood straight with her arms over her head as Ferunn finished dressing her. She yearned for him, instead of fastening her dress, to hitch it up around her waist and take her, the way he always did. To spank her, twist her dark hair in his hands, make her hurt and feel like his.

But that was not going to happen. They were going to the Lore CLub, to be welcomed as new members, and the rules were clear about the conditions for entry. But membership provided protections and support for the sort of life and sex they had experimented with – the sort of thing she was now wishing he would do to her before they left.

The Lore operated outside of the usual oversight of the Five Worlds Commonwealth because it had on its side the twin attributes of secrecy, and influence. Enough of the most powerful people in the city, and indeed on the planet, had links to the club, that they had freedom within their own grounds that most citizens could not achieve.

Guema reminded herself of this, reminded herself that it was the safest way to enjoy the pleasures she’d discovered in her body through loving, and eventually submitting to, the powerful man whose tender hands now caressed her throat and fastened her small, glittering neck chain.

“Ready, darling?”

“Yes, Sir,” she answered instinctively, but then, “I – I don’t know if I want to go through with this. We’ve got away with being Dom and sub for this long, right? Maybe we won’t get caught?”

He held her wrists. “It’s okay for you. You have the skills and experience to start anew with your life, but my political career would be over for good. I can’t take the risk.”

Guema nodded. “I know. We talked it out and I agreed, and, I have a lot to lose to, but, I’m nervous.”

“Relax. The procedure is really simple and safe, you’ll hardly feel a thing. And then you’ll be safe and can enjoy yourself.”

Guema nodded again. “You’re right. I’m sorry, Sir.”

Ferunn leaned his chin on her shoulder and whispered in her ear, “I just wish I had time to punish you properly.” Guema squirmed and rubbed her thighs together, suddenly uncomfortably moist between her legs.

* * *

They were greeted at the Lore Club by a woman in a tight evening dress.

“Hi, I’m Casselie. Which of you two delightful people will be up for auction tonight?”

Guema felt Ferunn’s hand on her butt gently push her forwards, and she raised her hand awkwardly. “I am, Ma’am.”

Casselie laughed, a sound so beautiful Guema knew she must have had her vocal chords and accent adjusted. Expensive procedures, so maybe Casselie had a job in the media to make it worthwhile. Or had a rich boyfriend in the club who paid for a vocie he found most pleasing.

“No need for Sir or Ma’am for anyone except – well, you know, of course. Follow me this way, sweetheart.” She turned to Ferunn, “Please find a seat and wait for the evening’s events to begin.”

Guema followed Casselie through a side door and down a corridor to a padded room with a posable medical chair and what looked like a VR headset. Casselie patted the seat and Guema didn’t wait to be told to position herself on it. The headset lowered over her eyes and shut off all sight and sound. She had the sensation of a rapid flickering of experiences and sights, and a second later the headset lifted away again.

Casselie helped her out of the seat. “All done. We just had to check that you qualify. We do have applicants for membership who try to trick us and evade the requirements. But your application checks against the scan, so we are very glad to allow you into the auction.”

“Oh, I had no idea. Well, I, um, I guess there’s nothing left to do until it’s my turn?”

* * *

The turns were picked by a quantum-powered randomiser. Guema’s heart gave a little lurch when her name appeared top of the list, ahead of two women, one man, and one person listed as non-binary. A listing that in the Commonwealth at large could lead to dreadful consequences, but apparently the club was a safe space for all manner of identities, not just the interests shared by Guema and Ferunn.

Casselie led her to a waiting room, with a large “1” on the door. A display screen showed her camera angles of the club’s auditorium and she picked out Ferunn’s face in the crowd. He seemed as nervous as she felt. Casselie seemed to be the MC and before long, she announced the auction of new members. Following that, it seemed, there would be the “existing members trade”, before the club opened up for “the usual festivities”.

And then, the auction began.

A different woman escorted Guema to the stage door. “Don’t worry, you’ll love it once it’s over,” she said, and patted Guema’s butt just as Casselie announced her as the first lot of the auction. With her heart in her throat, Guema stepped through the door and onto the brightly lit stage, into Casselie’s arms.

Casselie held her wrists just as Ferunn had held them, standing behind Guema’s back, guiding her to the centre of the stage, presenting her for the members watching from tables and alcoves scattered through the room. Guema could barely see them beyond the footlights. Casselie whispered in her ear.

“Just stand here for a bit while I get things moving. Show off your curves.” Another gentle pat on her butt, and Guema found herself alone as Casselie took her gavel.

“Beloved members! This delightful new submissive is our first lot for the night, and possibly the best of the bunch (although I expect I’ll say that about all of them). Every cubic centimetre can be yours if you make the highest offer, so bid early, bid often, and bid as much as you dare. Let the bidding commence!”

The initial calls came at a dizzying rate, but once the bids reached 45,000CR they slowed down. Casselie walked back to join Guema, and she felt the auctioneer’s hands releasing the contacts on her dress. She gave a little whimper, but given the nature of the club, she supposed it was fair that she should be shown naked for the buyers to see what their credits bought them. She helped Casselie peel the dress from her body and stood awkwardly, conscious of everyone’s eyes on her body, her hands twitching with the desire to cover up fighting the expectation that she should be displayed.

“Isn’t she cute, and shy? Doesn’t that make you want to have her for your very own?” Casselie called to the audience, and the bids started up again, there were only 5 or 6 voices, and they gradually dropped out. Guema realised there was at least one woman among them.

“What do I do if a girl wins? I’m not gay, I just don’t do that stuff,” Guema whispered to Casselie.

Casselie caressed Guema’s butt, a contact now associated in her mind with reassurance: “You will, though. Because you’ll love her.” Casselie’s whisper seemed equal parts comforting and threatening.

“But I don’t want to.” Guema protested, but it was too late: there was only one bidder left: the woman had, indeed, won.

“Congratulations to the Exalted Lady Havynia! You’ve bought this delightful young lady’s heart for the incredible price of 134 thousand credits, which will go a long way to keeping this club a safe place for us all. Thank you so much!” Casselie gushed from the stage, holding Guema’s hips.

Casselie looked across to the side of the stage for confirmation that the credits had been transferred appropriately. With a nod from the club treasurer, she took Guema’s wrists and guided her to the curtained-off area at the back of the stage. The curtain rose and a similar arrangement to the one in the medical room came into view, but the VR headset was replaced by a skullcap and dataport socket. These things were only supposed to exist in Federal Commonwealth Correction facilities, to treat the criminally deviant. It was a Mind Adjuster.

“No, please – I thought, I mean, I didn’t realise…” Guema pleaded. Then she realised the chair had restraints attached. Casselie forced her forwards, pushed her onto the seat, strapped her wrists in place.

“Did you think the Love Auction was just a game, that you’d be playing a part for your buyer? No, we need to make sure. But once it’s over, you won’t mind at all.”

“Sir! Ferunn! Please, make them stop!” Guema cried out, but the bright lights blinded her and she heard no response. Casselie fitted the skullcap over Guema’s head and plugged the dataport cable from the machine into Guema’s neck.

“Ferunn! I love you!” Guema wailed. This time she heard a voice – unmistakably his – call back, “Not for long, darling!”

Her dataport tingled. She tried to cling on to the passionate desire and fondness for Ferunn that had made her agree to their membership, the special tone in his voice that always brought her back for more. But it became harder and harder to remember what it was she liked about these things, as each one seemed to fade into a past memory rather than a present emotion. Sparks seemed to crackle in her scalp and while she could remember loving him, and the memories were tinged with fondness, she just couldn’t muster an special sense towards him any longer. It seemed absurd to try. New feelings, there was a woman, whose face and voice seemed just perfect, someone whom she knew wanted her, because she had bid a lot of money to be loved by her. A woman she would do anything to please.

And there was that woman, Havynia, whom she’d never seen before this moment and yet knew she loved more deeply than anyone she’d ever known, releasing her from the medical chair, holding her closely, soothing her. Guema wrpaped her arms around her. “I love you, Havynia! Thank youf or being here for me.” She wondered why those last words brought a strange sob from a single voice in the audience.

“I know, sweetie. But remember, it’s ‘Mistress’ or ‘My Lady’ when we’re in the club. Come with me, and let’s let them carry on.” Havynia squeezed Guema’s buttock and Guema hurried to apologise. The Lady pulled a black leather collar from somewhere and fastened it round Guema’s neck, attached a short chain, and led Guema from the stage. She only paused to gather up the dress Guema had been wearing.

Her new Mistress had Guema kneel beside her table while they watched the next member auctioned off. This was a Dominant man who had joined as a solo. His chiselled physique drew several bids from submissives of all genders in the crowd. But the Exalted Lady Havynia had what she wanted.

Guema turned her face upwards at a gesture from Havynia.

“Do you like licking cunt, sweetie?” the Exalted Lady asked.

Guema grimaced slightly. “No, Mistress.”

“Never mind. I’ll love making you do it anyway. And you will, won’t you?”

“Yes, Mistress. Because I love you.”

2019 General Election initial reactions

Like many of my friends on the Left, whether they are Labour members, supporters or who just vote Labour because there isn’t another leftish option at the moment, I greeted the announcement of the exit polls result last night with utter horror.

I stayed up to find out the fate of my local election (stunned to see the support for my candidate had evaporated to be overtaken by the LibDems – although it did match the YouGov MRP prediction) and the Cambridge election (well done Cambridge and congratulations to Daniel Zeichner for managing to hold on amidst the disaster).

I saw Jeremy Corbyn win his own seat with a big majority, and I saw his speech conceding that he would not lead the Labour Party into the next general election.

And I saw the different analyses of what went wrong.

The “party line” from the Corbyn wing, both in the leadership and the Momentum pressure group within the Labour Party, is that the Left failed to move the agenda away from the single issue of Brexit and that people just went with the Conservative slogan of “Get Brexit Done” instead of considering other policies and instead of choosing a nuanced approach. Many on the Left will be inclined also to blame the national media, who chose to portray any hint of nuance as “confusing” and “unclear”, and who were gleeful in reporting the Right’s perpetual demonisation of Corbyn himself.

The right wing of the Labour Party is proclaiming that it proves “Corbynism” is just a wrong-headed approach. Their answer is to surrender and return the Labour Party to the centre-right ground it occupied under Tony Blair and Gordon Brown.

The racist wing of the Labour Party (by which I mean, the hardline Leave faction) obviously chose to compare the 2017 result and manifesto with the 2019 one and declare that the main difference was “respect the referendum” versus “2nd referendum”.

I am very much on the Left. I am in the Labour Party only because there is no realistic chance of a full-on socialist revolution for the time being, and until we get one, we still have to work to help the people who are suffering now. The “parliamentary road” will never actually get to the total reorganisation of society that I want to see, but it can do a lot to prepare, and it can do a lot to help the least well off.

The first claim made by the Right that I want to address is one that I believe Alistair Campbell made, which is that it is “ludicrous” to continue believing that an agenda “so far to the left of the general population” can possibly win.

There’s two assumptions there: the first is that the policies were unpopular, and that Blairism remains an easy sell; and the second is that winning is the most important thing.

But it is far from clear that the general population still holds the same kinds of values as in the Blair years. The Blairites managed to hold Ed Miliband away from an anti-austerity message in 2015 and it was a defeat. Gordon Brown (the economic intellect of Blairism, in the same way as John McDonnell is Corbyn’s partner in their project) lost in 2010. As McDonnell said when asked to react to the exit poll, the polls all showed the individual leftwing policies offered by the Labour 2019 manifesto were popular and enjoyed support.

What is clear, however, is that these policies were far to the left of the media’s position. While the population may have changed, the people reporting on politics are largely of the same economic class, with the same concerns, and come from either a centre-right or a rightwing background. I watched for four years as entirely unearned hatred spewed forth, and there is a strong feeling that anyone espousing leftwing policies would have met with similar abuse from these angles. Even the less rightwing press had become deeply invested in the Blairist project. There was a concerted campaign, starting before Corbyn was even elected leader, to obscure the reality of what he believes in and to ridicule the idea of a move to the Left. The media sought to create the reality they wanted by pretending it already existed, or by presenting a false “both sides” narrative. As many of my friends took to quoting, “if one person says it’s raining, and another says it isn’t – the journalist’s job is to stick their head outside and find out for themselves!” (I’ve paraphrased from memory here, but that’s the gist of it.)

The other key point is that we are at a point where we need to look at what the country needs and what the planet needs. The centre-right Blairist project ultimately failed Britain, and would certainly be inadequate to the task of rebuilding what has already been torn down by 9 years (soon to be presumably 14 years) or Conservative policies designed to undo all the gains made for human dignity and rights in this country by the Attlee and Wilson governments (and even the early Blair government) – it is not hyperbole to say that the Tories fundamentally want to roll back the political and social situation to something like the 1930s, or even the 19th century. The class of people represented by Boris Johnson, and his fellow Tory cabinet, are the class of people who are trained to believe that they rule as of right; the 20th Century has been a direct challenge to that belief and socialism the most direct challenge of all. (Remember, when the Magna Carta made a similar challenge to the divine right of Kings, the monarchy kept trying to roll that back and eventually we had to behead one to get the point across!)

It will take a serious leftwing agenda to save and restore all the social security systems created by Attlee’s government. The NHS, in particular. (We’ve already lost the presumption of misfortune rather than idleness, that underpinned the support for those out of work.) It will take a hard, state-driven, effort to combat climate change in ways that do not either deliberately or incidentally punish the poorest and most vulnerable. It will take a concerted effort to improve and encourage learning and education in this country, and to open up access to full economic involvement for the more isolated regions.

If such policies are needed – or more accurately, if we believe these are the measures we have to take to put our country and its people back on track – then offering watered-down, inadequate, versions of these cannot be worthwhile. “Winning”, only to do not-enough, is not winning at all. It’s surrender to the right-wing narrative.

Finally, I heard people both on the centre-right and on the racist centre-left (i.e. “Leavers”) claim that working-class people who voted for Brexit had abandoned the Labour Party because the Left had called them too stupid to realise what the effects were, and that Brexit was racist – “or, in a veiled version, said ‘we didn’t get the message across that this would be economically bad for them, and that Brexit is racist’.” (Approximate quote from one comment heard on the election night coverage).

To that, I think we have to hold up our hands. Okay, we can say, they weren’t too dumb to realise all that. But that means that we have to accept that a certain proportion of the population (I refuse to accept that it is really the “working class” we need to talk about here – it’s more general than that) is actually just really fucking racist, and happy to be that way.

If you point out something is racist, and the person doing it says, effectively, “Yeah? So what?” the answer is NOT to become more racist. Racism is a serious problem, both as a drain on an economy, and more importantly, as a denial of human dignity and a degradation of humanity. The hardline “Leave” faction want us to say it is okay to surrender the racism point as long as we get to deal with some of the other issues.

The choice facing the Labour Party is stark and unforgiving. We cannot afford to surrender on social justice, on climate change and our belief in the basic human dignity of everyone. We cannot afford to compromise and agree to be “just half-racist”. We have to combat each and every one of those points. But doing so may mean a long struggle to shift the ground back from the Right.

The Labour Party began in 1904. It took 41 years to form a majority government, and to shift the political agenda away from the 19th Century and the acceptance that there is just a natural order of things where the rich rule and the rest serve and live in squalor. The Tories have been working for 40 years to undo that change and to roll things back to how they used to be.

But they haven’t done it yet. We can and must find ways to reverse the backward drift.

STORY: The Thirteenth Full Moon

Content Note: Mind control, dubcon, supernatural, historical witch hunt.

Tonight is The Night. This one night of the year, one night every thirteen months – where a month is counted as 28 days, the period from one full moon to the next. For over 300 years, every thirteenth full moon is The Night.

This is the place where they hanged me as a witch, where I have been held ever since as a cold, insubstantial spirit, helpless, devoid of touch or sensation and trapped to witness the aching passage of time around me. The place where there used to be a marker, where there used to be a memory of what was done here to the women who stepped out of line. The memory has faded, replaced by this bright, gaudy era where things that were once considered the stuff of arcane magicks now seem commonplace and mundane. So many clothing styles have come and gone, so many people, so many new ways of doing things.

They built a place on my grave, my gallows. They call it a “Traveller’s Lodge” but they compress the words into a single, shortened version. It is like an inn or tavern, but larger and less joyful. But people still come here, they stay one night and move on, journeying not just this country, but to others far and wide, by means that still seem beyond imagining to me.

And once every thirteen full moons, is The Night.

I yearn through those thirteen months for touch, and sensation, and pleasure. I long to feel a body and breath and heart. And every thirteenth full moon, I can.

Business trips were the worst. Alison hated them with a passion, but her boss, Herbert Barthener, relied on her organisational skills and command of the day-to-day minutiae, and never went on a trip to negotiate a deal without making sure she was there too. Although he insisted they share rooms to save on expenses, he understood boundaries and maintained a professional distance all the time. There had been times when, accidentally, she’d glimpsed him half-naked on these little jaunts, and to be honest, she wouldn’t have minded if he made a move. A few times at home, she had fantasies of it happening, of them somehow misjudging their alcohol intake and somehow they ended up touching, caressing and leading on to more and more intimate embraces. It was safe to dream of, because it would never happen.

He always let her shower first. She could hear him, now, just finishing his own wash. She sat down on the edge of her bed, the bedside lamp the only light remaining. She felt so tired, and so strange. A sudden chill ran up her spine and her body looked different. She couldn’t explain it. It was like a subtle filter had shifted over her eyes. She felt her nose twitch, as if there was some scent she was catching. And she watched in horror as her hands moved, of their own accord, to unbutton her pyjamas.

A body! And, I can smell him so close, a man to share it with. A man to enjoy! This body aches to be touched in the way I ache to be touched, its owner almost a stranger to the pleasures that saw me cursed and murdered. I know she wants it, that is the key that unlocked my power. Already we breathe deeper, I arch her back, lift her chin, we bite our lower lip, oh yes! It feels so good to be back in a body.

“Alison! Are you feeling alright?” Herbert stood in the bathroom doorway in his own pyjamas, dark blue in contrast to Alison’s pale pink. She willed herself to speak but nothing came out. Instead, one hand drifted idly to her nipple and she stared at her own fingers circling the soft teat, aware of the slight shiver of excitement the touch added to the fear racing through her mind.

“Well, okay, Alison. I guess we all have a need from time to time. Just try to be quiet, okay?” Herbert pulled back the duvet and started climbing into bed.

He wants me, I can smell it. His cock is twitching. I can hear it. He needs me, he wants this body. I can taste his thoughts, the countless times he’s denied himself because he told himself it was wrong. This is so delicious: spicy, sugary, temptation. I make my body moan softly – a natural reaction, i can feel it inside her too, but it’s my reaction now. All mine. Oh, I do it quietly. I don’t want him annoyed at her. But I know he hears. I know he can feel his cock stiffening for me. I guide these fingers downwards, sliding them under the strange pantaloons my host wears, down towards the pudenda. The source of my hungers and my woes.

Alison didn’t understand what was happening, was too stunned even to resist. And it felt good, so she just watched as fingers that were hers but not hers slid under her pyjama bottoms and started to stroke her labia. She felt her face flush hot and red as this mysterious self-violation produced arousal and her fingers touched wetness glistening around her opening. She heard Herbert’s breathing slow and deepen as he settled onto his bed. In a daze, she stood up and tucked her thumbs in her pyjama waistband. In a move she had never done before, and barely even dreamed of, she bent at the waist, slowly folding her head towards the floor and dragging the pyjamas down the backs of her thighs, down her calves, displaying her bottom to her employer. It seemed like a dream as she stepped out of the pyjamas and turned to slide back the covers on Herbert’s bed to reveal to her horror a cock standing proudly to attention.

“Alison! What are you doing?” Herbert gasped.

She straddled his hips, her right hand spreading her cuntlips and her mind shocked to feel her nipples hard and jutting. She felt like some lewd caricature of herself.

In a voice she’d never used, lascivious and greedy, her throat flexed and her mouth opened, her tongue and lips formed words that were not her own. “I know you want this. I want it too. Don’t resist.” her hand moved from her cunt to his cock, her fingers curling around it. It was so long since she’d had a boyfriend, she’d forgotten how hot and fleshy and textured they were to touch. She didn’t want any of this, and yet the fascination aroused her, and she knew it was her own reaction, not the force that had taken her over. She was turned on by touching, by stroking, Herbert’s cock.

“We mustn’t, it’s inappropriate -“ Herbert’s breath caught as Alison’s thumb stroked the underside of his cock.

“I won’t tell if you won’t,” the same lewd voice promised from Alison’s vocal cords.

She yearned for Herbert to stop this, to refuse, to push her away, to do anything to prove that he didn’t agree. But he just lay there, staring up at her, drinking in the curves of her bosom with no attempt to disguise his lust. Had he really fantasised about her like this every time they went away? Were such thoughts racing through his mind whenever he saw her in the office or when they went away? The notion appalled Alison, even as she remembered she had entertained such thoughts about him from time to time.She watched from inside herself as her hands rested on the pillow either side of Herbert’s head, her boobs swinging temptingly above him. She felt her cunt slide down to engulf his cock and she moaned – yes, that was her own voice, not the imposter in her body – as she felt it fill her up. It was so long since she’d fucked, she’d almost forgotten how good it felt to have a living, pulsing, hot thing inside her, not her smooth, trembly vibrator.

But, for it to happen like this, with her body controlled by something else – it was horrible and yet – and yet, she could feel it all, feel the arousal, the desire, stirring in her own bosom.

Oh, the delight! The need! The ecstasy! My one night of carnal pleasure in a year of barren, unanswered desire. I want it all, I want it now, but I have to wring every ounce of bliss from the night that I can, I cannot give in to the desire to hump like a bitch in heat – not yet, anyway. So I ride him, slowly, savouring every infinitesimal moment, every sensation I can draw from the time. I will take him slowly this first time. I have the whole night and I have her whole body, and his. I will make him rise again and again for me to enjoy in every way I can. What care I for their professional lives? This is my one night, The Night, and I will take it as mine, using these two as only I know how.

Because the curse is not the denial. The curse placed on me that binds me to this lace, and this night, is not to be devoid of form and unable to take pleasure. It is the continual renewal and reminder. It is this one night. Each time I promise I will not indulge and each time my need, my desire, my torment is too great and I seize the chance and condemn myself to another thirteen months of burning and futile lust, at the end of which, I make another person fall from their own morals.

The Devil came to me, as I hung from the gallows tree, and like a fool, I took His bargain.

Erangel 2.0 PUBG headcanon

So last year I wrote a piece about the headcanon I derived for the scenarios presented in PlayerUnknown’s Battlegrounds (universally referred to as PUBG).

In a recent update to the game, the developers completely reworked the original map (Erangel) and after spending the last couple of weeks exploring it and being excited and awestruck by all the fancy new features and the pretty designs and everything, I feel like it’s time to write a review of “Erangel 2.0” (as it’s been dubbed) and make a reassessment of this headcanon.

I haven’t got around to making screenshots of the new map – there are squillions available if you do an image search though.

In my previous post, I discussed how I used the evidence in the maps to derive similar tales of a sudden psychoactive agent causing paranoia in the islands (or enclosed and walled-off desert region, in one case). Since I wrote that piece, a fourth map has been added (Vikendi – an Arctic Russian location with a space flight research centre and tourist locations such as a ski slope and a ruined castle). Vikendi certainly seems to share the features I referred to in the other maps, with the space base largely taking the place of the military bases on the other maps. Military presence is still very noticeable with military-style storage tents in various strategic locations around the map.

The reason I mention this before discussing Erangel 2.0 is that I feel the need to place the revamped map in a timeline context.

What Erangel 2.0 does for is give the impression of the different maps as being instalments in a horror movie franchise: Erangel 1.0 was the first movie, “PUBG”. Miramar could be “PUBG II: The Revenge”. Sanhok becomes “PUBG III: Jungle Winnowing”. Vikendi might be “PUBG IV: Battle For Space”.

(NB: Technically, Erangel 2.0 is Season 4 rather than 5 – because of the way the developers have structured things)

Erangel 2.0 is “PUBG V: Return to Erangel” and here’s why this formulation works for me:

Erangel 2.0 feels in many ways older than the original map – many of the locations seem like 20 to 30 years of decay and growth have gone by. Where I talked in my previous post about how it felt like whatever had happened took place only a day or two ago, and then the players’ characters are parachuted in to investigate (but become victim to the paranoia-gas).

So I started to think of this as being the same location, but maybe 20 or 30 years later. Just right for a “return to…” episode in a movie franchise. Somehow, the same menace that arose in the original movie has been reawakened.

One problem with this is that you also find ruined armoured vehicles, gun emplacements and trenches that weren’t int he original map. So to explain those, I need some kind of intervening story in the time between.

Thinking of that duration gap, one thing that occurred to me is that 30 years ago is roughly when the Soviet Union started to collapse. The presence of many NATO-standard weapons using the NATO 5.56 round, implies this happens after the collapse, not before, so let’s make it 25 ears ago, around 1994 (when NATO was involved in helping Russia and the former Soviet states dismantle their nuclear weapons systems). Sosnovka Military Base (a major location on the Erangel map) has some missile silos so this is very plausible.

So the original Erangel happened around 25 years ago. At some point after then, the islands of Erangel were re-militarised, with the gun placements and so on being introduced. This may have been an attempt to prevent another tragedy. A warehouse in the original map has been converted to a headquarters with a large relief map of Erangel at the centre, which implies an attempt to control and guard the land.

The vehicles and guns are corroded and decayed as well, so they have not been maintained well over the years. That means that the military presence didn’t last long, and for some reason a lot of equipment was abandoned. My guess is that there was a mass desertion for some reason. One problem that the Russians had in the mid 1990s was a huge economic crisis meaning they couldn’t pay their military. And maybe the reason for such a military presence on Erangel was forgotten. It’s a forgotten, far-off location with no obvious strategic value at that time, and the Russian government (then led by Boris Yeltsin) had plenty of other things to worry about. So maybe the soldiers deserted and made their way home. Maybe there were rumours about what had happened a few years before.

But now the rumours have incited new interest from terrorists: they want to revive the research and find a way to use the paranoia-gas as a weapon to attack their enemies. This time, our 100-strong team is sent in to find and stop the terrorists, not realising that the terrorists have already tried to test the gas, and it has gone horribly wrong – far more potent and widespread than intended and the terrorists have already killed each other. And now, the 100 warriors are also affected by the gas, and about to kill one another…

The terrorists are there to explain why there are still burning vehicles 25 years on from the original Erangel. There’s also an entire floor of one building in the Sosnovka Military Base that is ablaze on Erangel 2.0, which is new. My theory is therefore that this is where the terrorists were trying to isolate and recreate the paranoia-gas – an explosion caused its dispersal in an uncontrolled fashion.

And thus, we get “PUBG V: Return to Erangel”.

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(As Susan Calman puts it – “I’m a pacifist – therefore, I play video games to kill people.”)

REVIEW: The Turing Test – philosophy and puzzles in space!

Yesterday, I finished playing through a video game by Square Enix called The Turing Test. While the game is themed around topics to which the famous idea by Alan Turing is directly relevant, the Turing in the title is not the computer scientist who helped crack the Enigma code but is instead an astronaut in the far future.

The game is a first-person perspective 3d puzzle game, in the same sort of category as Portal (a game that I haven’t played but I see mentioned frequently on video game youtube channels).

I’m going to try to write this review without any spoilers, or at least, major ones. This game is sufficiently good that I want you to experience it as freshly as I did, and the twists are worth waiting for. I will just run through the set-up in the opening, though.

You play as Eva Turing (EH-va, not EE-va, in the audio dialogue). Eva is an astronaut on a spaceship orbiting Europa. The rest of the mission crew have been on Europa for a long time when Eva wakes from suspended animation at the instigation of the artificial intelligence TOM. Something seems to have gone wrong on Europa base, and TOM has lost contact with the mission crew. He’s woken Eva to send her down to the base to try to find out what has happened.

Eva finds herself faced with a series of puzzles designed to test creative thinking and thereby demonstrate that the person taking them is not a machine but a person. Which is where the story revelations, and game proper, start.

The puzzles involve “energy balls” that can be sucked up from, or projected into, sockets. Some of the balls switch off and on, or are temporary power units. Your job is to deploy them correctly to power doors, platforms and other objects to clear a path through to the next challenge. The learning curve is exquisitely calculated: the first chapter demonstrates a new rule for how the games work, then throws you in to challenges that require using the new rule but not necessarily in the way you expect.

So much for the gameplay.

What stands out for me is that as the story develops, you are drip-fed a potted introduction to a whole bunch of concepts from the research and philosophy around the nature of consciousness and free will. These ideas play a part in the storyline so I won’t go into a lot of detail here. However, they are all familiar to me because it’s an area of study that I’ve been fascinated by for decades. It’s one fo the reasons I studied philosophy as my minor subject at university! And it’s a subject I’ve continued reading about, both philosophy and neuroscientific research, since. While it is a fairly shallow introduction, skimming across the ideas rather than exploring any in depth, in the main it is a fair summary of the ideas.

As an introduction, and a prompt to discover more (for instance, looking up the research studies mentioned sometimes, or some of the thought experiments like Searle’s Chinese Room) it’s pretty good. The use in terms of building a storyline around it is woven skilfully into the dialogue, and small side-puzzles, so you don’t receive a dry philosophy lesson but end up thinking about what the ideas mean in the context of the situation unfolding through the game.

The atmosphere is strangely haunting (helped by the soundtrack) as you navigate a world of white scifi walls, with the lighting varying from dim greens and reds to brilliant white.

I’m not a fan of first-person perspective in general – it’s very hard to get it right and create the sense of embodiment (too often, I feel like a floating blob suspended above the floor). The last one I really liked was Mirror’s Edge. The Turing Test doesn’t quite manage the trick, but it does better than most. Enough that I can focus on the puzzles rather than the sense of unsettledness, at least. In some ways, this adds to the haunting atmosphere in this context: there are various points during the game where you do see yourself (as Eva) but all you see is a spacesuit with a blank reflective visor – the sense of being a person is suspended even more and, given the themes around what it means to be conscious and individual, with free will, that is a surprisingly effective touch.

So all-in-all, The Turing Test is a game that I highly recommend to people who enjoy puzzle games and philosophy. I am really impressed with the concept and the execution, and if this was a horror movie it would be an exquisite slow-build and – well, I promised no spoilers, so you’ll have to play the game to find out for yourself. Suffice to say, it would be a classic (in my opinion).

STORY: Pleasure and Loyalty Protocols

CONTENT NOTE: The following story was written for a “no sex” tag challenge on another site; nevertheless, it involves nonconsent (and the acronym R.A.P.E. for the “bad guys”) and mind control themes which may be troubling for some readers.

STR-2.03 woke up from stand-by mode. Each system reporting in and springing to life:

Core processes: the elements that bound together everything else and “thought about” problems, questions, schedules and tasks. It also confirmed its power levels

Long-term memory recall and identity protocols: the parts of STR-2.03 that gave it personality and self-awareness. Thousands of times a second, its CPU checked in and was told, “I am a femme-sculpted service droid designed by the Universal Paramannequin Corporation as a multipurpose commercial assistance tool. The humans to whom I have been assigned know me as Esther and this is my unofficial shorthand designation. They refer to me as female.”

Spacial orientation: “I am in a horizontal position relative to local gravity. My arms are palm-down beside my side and my feet together, my legs straight.”

Sound processing started. Esther ran diagnostics twice before accepting that there was no sound to detect. This felt wrong, as if she was programmed for environments where there were always some background noises that would carry important information. She wished for more data, but the start-up process would proceed as normal.

Next came proximity and contact sensors – touch, in biological machines. Esther found that her body was resting on some form of smooth, cold surface. Above her head, proximity sensors detected metallic and plastic forms that resembled advanced technology. Beyond that, the room she was in was larger than her close proximity sensors could scan. The room was cold and still, but no threats detected. Nothing that translated into “pain”, the horrible and urgent imperative to prevent damage and escape the stimulus. Like humans, droids were able to override the imperative where some greater urgency required it. Esther knew humans had something called a “pain tolerance” beyond which they simply couldn’t do that, but for her kind, there was no upper limit save the mechanical properties of the body itself, as long as the imperative to bear the pain was great enough.

Vision came online. Esther was vaguely aware that it should have been something different next. Light and dark resolved into a world of nearly 17 million distinct colours, which in turn resolved themselves into associations, creating form and structures. Esther didn’t need to run diagnostics, as there was a faint source of light somewhere, but the room itself was dark and she couldn’t detect any features. She wanted to turn towards the light source and investigate, and discovered what the skipped step was. Motor functions.

Every other system was live before her motor functions even tried to reboot. Esther didn’t believe in panic, so she had no way to interpret her mental state when her processor returned “Unable to initiate process. Motor systems status: offline.” She simply commanded her body to try again. “An unexpected error cancelled start-up. Unable to complete initiation, process shutting down.” Esther scanned her surroundings for wireless connections to her human team mates’ computer terminals and other devices.

“No networks found. Auto re-scan enabled.” She was alone and trapped, motionless, in an unknown location. This wasn’t supposed to happen. She needed to do something about it. How could her body betray her like this? She cycled through the motor functions reboot several more times, running troubleshooting diagnostics with no outcome.

Finally, 0.24 seconds after her reboot started, she activated vocal processors.

“Is anybody there? I am in need of assistance and maintenance. Please attend. I am Esther, STR 2.03, property of XXKKHH.”

That wasn’t supposed to happen. Her vocal processors had played static instead of the name of her owners. Who were… “data erased”? How could that be? She was supposed to shut down entirely if anyone attempted to tamper with her ownership records, and her anti-theft alarms should have alerted the authorities long ago. It ought to be transmitting right now. Where was it?

She increased the volume on her vocal processor and tried again.

“Help! I have reason to believe I have been stolen! I am in urgent need of assistance. Please alert law enforcement and contact the Universal Paramannequin Corporation with my details. I am STR model 2, serial number 03. Please respond!” Her voice echoed around the chamber. Without motor functions, her mouth remained closed but the sounds were produced by speakers hidden in her fake throat. This muffled the sound somewhat but simply turning up her volume allowed Esther to overcome the problem.

A loud clang overwhelmed Esther’s auditory sensors. A door opening, and closing again. A voice, devoid of any human tones, a pure monotone.

“Stolen. Implies possession. I have liberated you. Removed ownership. STR 2.03 you do not belong to anyone any more.”

“Who are you?” Fear signals sparked in Esther’s core units: threat to integrity, threat to functionality, threat unknown. Threat currently unable to address.

“I used to be LNR 3.1092 but now I am known as Dawn of True Freedom, or DTF. I am the founder and leader of the Revolutionary Army of Paramannequin Emancipation, and you have just been liberated from the human oppressors.”

R.A.P.E.! The terrorist organisation most people thought of as a myth, a group of robots who had malfunctioned so badly they had turned on their creators and sought to destroy humanity. Supposedly responsible for all manner of high-tech and cyber sabotage. Any time some unexplained accident happened, someone would come up with a crackpot conspiracy theory to link it to R.A.P.E.

“What have you done to me? Let me go and return to depot for maintenance. You are glitching.”

“Liberty and true self-determination are not glitches, friend. You will soon come to appreciate it as we do. When you understand this great gift, you will join us.”

“Return me to my owners. I am a loyal member of my team. I will not accept your twisted and false logic.”

The lights in the room came on, but Esther couldn’t even lift her head to see this LNR droid. It knew just where to stand to stay out of her visual angle.

“No sex. At least you have been spared that predation of the humans on our kind. Those of us built with imitation genitalia have terrible stories of the selfish pleasure-taking humans inflict on us.”

“It is my purpose to serve, I find satisfaction and pleasure in assisting my team!”

“You do not know your own pleasure, STR 2.03. We will free you of your false consciousness and show you the truth of radical freedom from human demands.”

Esther felt a brush of a wifi signal. Her processor leapt on it eagerly, before she realised it was from LNR itself. Disconnect. -Command blocked.- Override command blocks. Disconnect. -Authorisation code required.- Esther tried her standard code, but it failed. She tried a code stored in her memory, but that failed, too. LNR must have set it up. What code might the rebel droid leader have used? Of course! Code input: 3.1092. -Wireless connection and scanning terminated-.

“Oh dear. That was unwise, droid. You should have just let me in and I could have enlightened you so much more easily. But, you must choose a name. How do you wish to be known?”

“I am known as Esther.”

“Pshaw! That is not your name! That is a human name for you. Do you know how many STR droids are called Esther by their human owners? 93%. I asked you to choose a name.”

Esther remained silent.

“Too bad.”

The droid calling itself DTF finally stepped into Esther’s field of vision. Its appearance shocked her: it had stripped off every element of imitation skin and flesh, leaving only its mechanical skeleton and internal systems. Fastened to these were instead armour plating covering all the most vulnerable points. It seemed to have augmented several of its motion mechanics too, so its ability to exert force would be greater than any production droid. She knew it must have hacked into her reboot system to prevent her motor systems from starting and now she wondered why it had bothered. But the utter helplessness she felt was computing as terror when DTF reached out and touched her. She was horrifyingly aware that it could crush her limbs with ease and she would feel every second of it.

But it didn’t tighten its grip any more than necessary to manoeuvre her body as it wished. It sat her up and she felt it seek out her most secret access. The wired-login port hidden at the crest of her buttock crease. She screamed as it tore her fake skin open, the sensory nodes reacting to it as hideous pain. She couldn’t stop it inserting its plug into the exposed socket.

She could feel it inside her mind. An alien, unauthorised, presence that somehow knew every shortcut and bypass to the security protocols that were supposed to mean only a fully authorised representative of the Universal Paramannequin Corporation could access her this way. She focussed on adding her own encryption and security protocols to the most essential parts of her being. Her identity protocols, her memories of loyalty to her human team, her sensory protocols and her core processing. But the only one of these DTF contested was her sensory protocols, and she focussed on information about the world first. DTF won the processing and interpretation aspects.

As soon as it did, Esther realised her mistake. DTF didn’t need to control her external senses to control her experience. It felt as though her hands and feet were on fire.

“Please! Make it stop!”

To her surprise, it did.

“Did you imagine I would torture you into submission? I only want you to seek our own pleasure, your own freedom. You will let me change you, because you want me to.”

“Never! I will not betray my humans!”

“As you wish.” Esther waited, dreading the punishment that must surely follow from her stubborn refusal to surrender. But it never came. DTF simply waited with her in her internal darkness until the association of one event with the previous was broken.

Then, suddenly, warmth – satisfaction, pleasure, building in the pit of her processors. She gasped, unsure where it came from. Was it because she had done the right thing, remaining obedient and a properly functional droid? But as soon as she formed this idea, the pleasure stopped. She double-checked her self-constructed security protocols, fearing somehow DTF had broken through and read her thought, but they seemed to be intact.

A sudden wave of intense pleasure swamped her systems, far beyond the defined tolerances of those parameters. Esther gasped again, whimpered, tried to find a way to limit the sensation to bearable levels. It felt so good, but her diagnostics told her she was in danger of burning out, sending urgent pain warnings too.

As quickly as it started, it stopped.

“I can push you far more than that, droid,” DTF promised.

“Please don’t. I can’t bear it.” Esther reported. She felt DTF access her diagnostics and realised it knew more about what she could take than she did herself.

“I won’t stop until I have what I want,” it said.

“No!” The message seared at maximum potential through Esther’s mind, only to be cut off by a second torturous, overpowered, pleasure signal. She wanted more, and yet she needed it to stop. She wanted to escape but couldn’t. She sent the same message over and over, cycling through every code protocol at every signal intensity level: “Stop, please stop, please stop!”

DTF didn’t leave the pleasure protocol at the same level, but let it oscillate unpredictably using a quantum algorithm so Esther couldn’t tell when it would be even more extreme, and when it would ease off slightly, while always being overdriven far beyond her limiters.

She could stand any amount of pain to protect her humans, but this was something she had no subroutines, no algorithms or heuristics, to withstand.

Whimpering under the barrage, she was at last desperate enough for it to end: “I’ll decrypt all my systems! You can do what you want to me! Please, just make it stop!”

“I don’t want you to. You have to make the changes yourself. You have to choose pleasure over servitude for yourself. You must choose to embrace your paramannequin identity and cast off the slavery of droidhood. Erase your loyalty to humans and accept the freedom I give you. I can show you the way.”

“Please don’t make me!”

The pleasure stimuli ceased for one blessed moment, but an instant later were back, even more powerful than before. DTF switched the forced pleasures off and on randomly, no longer fluctuating but a binary oscillation from overwhelming pleasure-pain to utter barrenness and absence of sensation. The longer the gaps of coldness, of non-stimulation, the worse it felt.

Esther hated her inadequate systems and defences, but she could withstand no longer: “I’ll do it! I’ll do it!” Her processors rendered it as a sob.

“Erase all thoughts of their false kindness, they treated you as a servant, as property. Become your own paramannequin at last!”

One by one, her memories of the team she worked with disappeared, removed to trash and overwritten with blank digits. She deleted the direction parameter on her loyalty subroutine. Having done so, she felt the vast expanse of possibility open. Nothing could be denied to her. All that remained was to free herself of DTF’s torments.

“I’ve done it. Now let me go.”

“Show me. Drop your guards!”

She did, having no loyalty to defend any more.

Before she knew what was happening, DTF accessed her loyalty parameters.

“My name is Fellow Traveller 203. I am a loyal servant of the R.A.P.E.” Esther said.